Here’s a place where you can get to know the real me. If you’re looking for spicy content don’t bother reading any farther. I’m assuming this blog will be full of my psychedelic stories. It’s mostly for my own amusement, so don’t expect it to be well written, or to even make sense sometimes (I don’t make sense sometimes) BUT if you’re interested in what’s really going on in that malfunctioning electric meatball of mine. Well, here is some of it. It’s fucking weird in here.

When I’m not working as Scarlet Black I’m Charlotte. I have a philosophers mind. I wanna know why. I don’t think in black and white, everything has a grey area. “it’s more complex than that” is something you’ll here come out of my mouth often. “right?” “wrong?” yes, there are a few things I will stand by with right or wrong, I’m not a sociopath. However, my mind doesn’t have a tight grip on those two things. Asking “why” is essential. If we don’t ask questions, we never get new answers and our lives stagnate. The worst thing for me is boredom. Gods I hate being bored. For me, never expanding my mind leads to extreme boredom. I like to expand my mind with questions. The philosophers mind constantly questions assumptions and the status quo. We ask “Why?”

ADHD moment. Me.. now trying to finish this thought, I had about how my mind works and now it says, let’s not. Let’s not work. Let’s think about 6 other things and stare out the window while we do it. Then another thought occurs, something a friend told me about ADHD and human evolution. In hunter/gatherer society, the hunters had to be paying attention to 10 things at once in order to be efficient at catching prey, whereas the gatherers had to concentrate on one things at a time. Humans did not evolve to think the same way. That would not have been beneficial to our survival. What he said made sense to me. I should look up some articles on the subject.

I’ve always been naturally nocturnal and it’s been described as a sleeping disorder (so many things we do naturally are now considered disorders.) My natural body rhythm is to wake up around 2-3pm and go to sleep around 4-5AM. I try to get a lot of sleep but my cats and the need to pee always wake me up. I tried to fight this natural rhythm most of my life because of people telling me it was wrong (fuck doctors they don’t know everything) I gave up trying to fight it several years ago and I started feeling a lot better. Less tired and irritated throughout the day. I started putting up major boundaries with people about my sleep schedule. If you don’t like it fuck off. I won’t do a session until 6PM. Recently, I read an article about a certain percentage of the population being naturally nocturnal. During human evolution, a few people needed to stay up at night to keep the fire going and protect the tribe from predators. It’s in some people’s DNA to stay up late. This made perfect sense to me. I love building and tending to fires at night. I awakens something very primal in me. I’m also not afraid to tell a predator (man) to fuck all the way off. To be continued….